Sometimes I ask myself, have I gotten so used to pain that I forget to breathe? Or am I focusing so much on how to make the pain go away that I didn’t even try to learn how to live with it? Wait, did I bury the pain? If I buried it, why do I still feel it?
Have you ever had that time in your life where you wish it will all go away? You cry out and say, “God, please take this away from me”. You believe in God, so you fast and pray, asking God to relieve your pain. But it feels like the more you pray, the more you feel the pain. What is happening? Am I not praying the right way? If I can just get to the other side of this mountain, everything will be fine. Even though I have no idea what is on the other side, I just want to get there. If God can just make the storm stop, everything will be fine.
What if God wants you to learn how to breathe through the pain? Trust, faith, those are the two things God wants from you. Pain is inevitable. Storms are going to keep coming, whether you like it or not. This is the time to hold on to your faith. This is the time to remind God of his promises for your life.
“For I know what my plans for you are, plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope” Jeremiah 29:11
Do you see the good news there? God knows his plans for your life. He sees your pain. Before you call on him, he knows. Just hold on.
“And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear” Isaiah 65:24
It’s 1:22 am and I paused to write because I got tired of studying. Reading about alleles and genotype is not really a fun thing to do at this time of the day.
Before I go to bed, I want you to remember that reading this is a blessing. It means you are alive and being alive means God has a purpose for your life. He is not done with you yet. So, this storm can’t swallow you. This is not the end. You will make it through this because you have the one who holds the world in his hands on your side. Breathe through the pain.